I LOVE YOU but why

okay... Dear, can you feel that i am really love you?

I know you love me actually but why you can't let me feel that?

I am really want to try to break but i can't do that...

I love you so much and much

I can change everything because of you but except my character

Don't let me lose myself please... can you please treat me more passion?

I try to treat you good and try to make the scene become more lively

I always talk and talk and talk... I just don't wanna to let you feel even a bit bored when dating with me

but why you will only feel that what i do is just because of my childish action?

I saw a bored face beside me

I hear a bored sound in the phone

I had a bored topic from you

And finally we are nothing

You say you wish that i can hang out with you when i can't before

you wish to do a lot of things with me before when i can't accompany you

you wish that i can always beside you before when i can't to do that before

BUT now... i can do any and everything with you but you don't need all of this already...

WHY???

When i hang out with you but i feel you felt bored

When we can do a lot of things but i feel you felt nothing can do between us

When i can stay beside you but i feel you felt nothing to say and talk with me

WHY??????

I don't know what is actually you want...

You make me guessing...

Can you please try to coax me when i was unhappy or piss off?

Can you please don't tell me you are really tired so you don't know what to talk and don't want to think anything and don't want to argue with me?

I felt these is just a reason for you to giving me and to perfunctory me...

You say you are tired but you are not ever thinking of me...

I should think a lot of ideas to try to make you smile make you happy and make you talk with me...

So you feel i am not tired for that right?

And if you are tired to talk with me... you just want to coax me when you are happy... you just put me away when you feel moody...

Then what for you want a girlfriend?

You say you love me, i am so important for you, you can't lost me...

but why i feel i am nothing in your heart?

everythings are oso about your friend, your working and your friends...

Then what for me?

You always tell me your friends want you to go out, your friends this and that...

But why don't you tell your friend about "my girlfriend want me to back home", or "i need me to back to accompany my girlfriend"????

I piss off not because of you can't accompany me at night...

Is the feeling of my mind... I feel i am a loser compare to ur friends... Your friends are always the winner...

You feel you can't lost your friends...

i know... i can't lost my friends too....

So..... i will try to do my own things to show you i got my own friends and own life too...

I get my freedom recently...

I am really free then before...

BUT the different is you don't need me to accompany anymore...

The difference between us will getting far soon...

So..............just let it go..........