Currently

How long i didn't write my post using english
feel like my english is already like a shit
but then my malay is proving now

i really felt bored for my life now
face my lovely laptop when the first i open my eyes
washing my face after going down the stairs
watching movie after wear my contactlens
waiting for him to come back home when nothing to do
this is my life right now

For this month, August
Go clubs for 3 times were out of my mind
always move move and shake shake with lose control
hang out with fren and fren
always go the same place with those same ppls
they are my lovely friends and that was their lovely place

I meet back someone recently
I dunno what is the feeling when i meet him
it is amazing when i meet him
someone must know that i am really unhappy recently and someone concern on me
another someone is missing
didn't find me anymore and didn't saw any shadow about him
so he is totally missing in my life again
when someone missing, someone will appear
this is what the GOD always give me for this few years

Currently i am thinking for 1 question
WOULD I DIED WITHOUT BOYFRIEND?
my answer is
i have a full confidence to say that i wont die without anyone
eventhough every ppl thought i will but i say i wont

Don't angry when Alex Low see this please

actually i really feel miserable to single life
i know this is not supposely to think now but this is really my feeling
i felt Love is hard for me for 1 year life
make me crazy angry and cry
why Love can control myself
i though i can control Love but now i know that is imposible

WHEN YOU FEEL YOU CAN CONTROL THE THING BUT FINALLY YOU LET THE THING CONTROL YOU...

痛

我知道如果刚刚什么也不问，不提，不说的话
我们都可以安然入睡
可是我，就是寻找问题的人（在他心里）
问了我想知道的问题
结果预料之内，我们闹得不愉快
他在耍他的脾气了，同样我也哭了

我真的什么方法都用尽了
我用尽了所有的力气，所有的语言
去向他表达我想讲的东西
可是为什么他就是完全一点都吸收不到
到底是哪里出了错？！

我真的很想大大声声的痛苦
是从心里面的哭！！！
如果现在我觉得幸福快乐的话，我就不会向他提起以前
如果他现在对我好的话，我就不会有任何的要求
如果我不是在乎我们两个字间的感情的话，我根本不会生气
如果我不是那么关心你的话，我不会哭

每次闹到分手的地步
你对我说你会改，对我所重新开始，对我说给一次的机会你
这一切一切的甜言蜜语，是不是只是用来挽留我
一旦成功，所有的事情就这样算了，一切抛诸脑后
可是你强调说不是
你强调你又实行
可是你的的却却没有做到

多少次的机会我给了你
多少次我原谅了你
没想到我会跟这样的一个男生在一起
没想到我会爱上一个这样的人
没想到我会选着你
没想带这就是我得到的东西

我的心真的痛死了

醉

醉· 这个字好像好久好久都没出现在我的生活里了
是自己不敢想象这个字的存在吧
曾今我的“醉”真的有很离谱
离谱到每个人都会禁止我再碰酒精
或许是自己胆量小了吧
感觉怕没面子了· 也怕醉了过后的丑样

曾几何时，我的胆量是多么的惊人
敢作敢当· 醉就醉· 不介意别人的眼光
可是换个角度想，我只是在宣泄我的不悦
对，我是个爱哭包
平时真的哭腻了，所以喜欢用醉来宣泄

最经至少每个月都有一次的狂欢
可是真的没有那个胆量去醉
就在昨天晚上，奇迹般的我喝的比跳的还多
终于，“醉”在车上发作了
是巧合还是潜意识里故意的这么做？
在这之前，我真的哭了无数次
累已经来不及运作了
面临干枯
所以就在昨晚，让自己不清醒，让自己为所欲为

WHAT I BROUGHT

the 1st really expensive present i brought for myself...
but i feel really waste for it...
bcoz it is really make me crazy and damn angry ...
but anywhere... i brought it...
RM1599 with alot of problems...
i go to the same place, same floor, same road and the same shop bcoz of all of these...
wth !!!!
wana to scold the sales man tat sell me this....
haiz....but... i own it now....nothing can do...