我和他

不知道谁告诉过我说 爱情的考验期 是在每对情侣在一起的第七个月
总是说 一对情侣刚开始的七个月里 都是幸福的 是爱情里的热恋期
可是在第七个月到来时 彼此开始发现对方的缺点 对方的不是
虽然还是仍旧在一起 但感情会不会变就要看过不过得了第七个月
刚开始听了不以为然 想了想又觉得有道理

说起我和我的他的开始 其实很好笑
像是老天爷在戏弄我们 根本都不让我们想过我们会有在一起的一天
我和他的第一次见面 是在三年前吧
三年前的预见 我们对彼此的出现根本就不以为然
彼此都只是朋友的朋友
可能见到面连招呼都不会打一个吧

去没想到去年的年头 我们不知道为什么 有了联络
开始是信息 过后就聊电话
然后就开始了信息和通电话
很谈得来吧 唇枪舌战 我和他两个都口齿伶俐
很难得遇到的对手 他是我第二个预见的对手
很好笑 好玩
因为斗嘴 我们变得有来往 就算是不曾见面 也都很谈得来
结果 我们就这样维持了半年多 差不多都整年了

结果 我还是接受了别人
兜兜转转 发生了许多事情后
结果还是分手了 选择了和现在的他 在一起
刚开始的我们 热情 甜蜜
就算是我家人的反对 我们不能见面
我们都知道电话来往 都能很甜蜜
虽然我都知道 他很不开心 当然我也一样 不能陪在他身边 也是我觉得愧疚的一点
很内疚
但我答应过他 毕业过后会有改变 会不一样
我会陪他过圣诞节 一定会

现在 毕业了
如我所言 我能够陪在他身边了 也能够陪他过圣诞
但是为什么我们就是没有了以前的甜蜜和快乐
这是我感到遗憾的一点
觉得我身边的他 闷闷不乐的 没有开心的气息
是我的问题吗 还是应为其他的的原因
我对他的热情 到现在都还在
但为什么我觉得他累了
他的工作令他感觉累了 对我们的感情也累了 我自然而然也变成了他的负担了
我很想找回我和他之前的感觉

我喜欢他以前对我的喜悦 对我的热情 对我的关怀
我爱他 我用我所有的力气去爱他
可是 为什么 我就是感觉不到他想以前那样对我呢
还是我和他根本经不起考验

对不起我令你累了
对不起我成了你的包袱
对不起 但我还是爱你的

MUACKZ...

Actually i am really lazy to blog...

So let's picture talk everything...

dang...dang...dang...dang...

we went to Jusco watch this movie today..

ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS

not bad... funny luuu....and they are very cute...

had our lunch at food & tea

sandwich there....

friends... don't try this....

not nice!!!!!!!!!!!

CLAYPOT LAOSHUFEN

don't try this too m y friends....

damn not nice and i tought this is dry because the claypot loushufen is suppose dry

but this one is like soup...

shit......!!!!!

SEAFOOD PORIDGE

this one is quiet nice luu

i like to eat but my dear say ok only...

thats all for my today

my dear still a bored face

never mind luu...

because he is very pity today...

he was ill.....

o.....my pity dear...

sam tong already....

anyway...love you...muackz...

度过

想想看
从几时开始 所有的节日都不再有家人的存在
从几时开始 和我一起共度每个节日的不是我的家人
从几时开始 不在乖乖的呆在家

其实 真的有点内疚
对爸爸妈妈的愧疚
要谢谢他们对我的宽容和疼爱
更要谢谢他们忍受我的叛逆

前几年开始 所有的节日都有朋友陪我度过
甚至从去年开始 变成了和男朋友过
但是···我却忽略了在家里等候的爸爸妈妈
却没有想到爸爸妈妈到底希不希望和自己的孩子一起共度每一个节日
我承认我的不孝 所以我说对不起
可能爸爸妈妈都以为我根本没有愧疚感
只是一味要求他们让我和朋友出去
但是其实我真的有感觉愧疚
只是我的心还是一直想往外跑
觉得自己懂得还不够多 去的地方还不够多 看的东西还不够多 认识的人也还不够多
我想出去 去得更远更远
爸妈 对不起
我还是爱你们的

可是最近我又在想
现在的我 考完试后的我 都是和我的贝出去
从去年开始 所有的节日都是和男朋友过
我 到底几久没有跟朋友一起共度节日
比如 我的生日 朋友的生日 圣诞节 新一年的到来 甚至情人节
很好笑吧 情人节都能和朋友一起过

可能人慢慢长大吧
有了男朋友 有了自己的生活
所以每个节日都不需要朋友了吧
很怀念 怀念以前和朋友一起共度每个节日的日子
和朋友到处去
逛街看戏买衣服
真的很开心

如果 能回到以前那样 就好了

I LOVE YOU but why

okay... Dear, can you feel that i am really love you?

I know you love me actually but why you can't let me feel that?

I am really want to try to break but i can't do that...

I love you so much and much

I can change everything because of you but except my character

Don't let me lose myself please... can you please treat me more passion?

I try to treat you good and try to make the scene become more lively

I always talk and talk and talk... I just don't wanna to let you feel even a bit bored when dating with me

but why you will only feel that what i do is just because of my childish action?

I saw a bored face beside me

I hear a bored sound in the phone

I had a bored topic from you

And finally we are nothing

You say you wish that i can hang out with you when i can't before

you wish to do a lot of things with me before when i can't accompany you

you wish that i can always beside you before when i can't to do that before

BUT now... i can do any and everything with you but you don't need all of this already...

WHY???

When i hang out with you but i feel you felt bored

When we can do a lot of things but i feel you felt nothing can do between us

When i can stay beside you but i feel you felt nothing to say and talk with me

WHY??????

I don't know what is actually you want...

You make me guessing...

Can you please try to coax me when i was unhappy or piss off?

Can you please don't tell me you are really tired so you don't know what to talk and don't want to think anything and don't want to argue with me?

I felt these is just a reason for you to giving me and to perfunctory me...

You say you are tired but you are not ever thinking of me...

I should think a lot of ideas to try to make you smile make you happy and make you talk with me...

So you feel i am not tired for that right?

And if you are tired to talk with me... you just want to coax me when you are happy... you just put me away when you feel moody...

Then what for you want a girlfriend?

You say you love me, i am so important for you, you can't lost me...

but why i feel i am nothing in your heart?

everythings are oso about your friend, your working and your friends...

Then what for me?

You always tell me your friends want you to go out, your friends this and that...

But why don't you tell your friend about "my girlfriend want me to back home", or "i need me to back to accompany my girlfriend"????

I piss off not because of you can't accompany me at night...

Is the feeling of my mind... I feel i am a loser compare to ur friends... Your friends are always the winner...

You feel you can't lost your friends...

i know... i can't lost my friends too....

So..... i will try to do my own things to show you i got my own friends and own life too...

I get my freedom recently...

I am really free then before...

BUT the different is you don't need me to accompany anymore...

The difference between us will getting far soon...

So..............just let it go..........

CHRISTMAS PRESENT

let's show you my christmas present
yaya... this is my christmas present
a set of shampoo, leave-in, and treatment
my BEI gift me

he always say my hair is already damn fragile

ask me to do a treatment to take care of my hair

but i m too lazy to take care of it

so he straight away gift me this

wakaka

CHRISTMAS EVE

OKAY....

first i want to talking about my christmas eve

actually it was quiet bored but full of heart

i m waiting for him at home for a few hours bcoz he need to working

but i m really piss off even i know he was working at the time

i really dun like to waiting at all

but finally is nothing for us

i m so sorry to my BEI yesterday nitez for showing him my black face

i hope he can forgive me

we are going to bangsar's VICTORIA's STATION to during our christmas eve with his salon colleage

i thought this time he will like to during this eve only with me

of course mee too

but he was no car so we need to go out together with his friend

when we reach there

the food there are quiet expensive

but its ok for nowaday for us

my apple juice for the dinner

i think they will served a little bread b4 we having our meal in every high class restaurant

but actually i dun like butter to be in use with bread bcoz it is too oily for me

this is my meal [ PRAWN WITH CHICKEN CHOP ]

the really special is the chicken was not a drumstick like others restaurant

the taste oso not so nice comparing to THE SHIP

but finally i finish it bcoz i m really hungry

this is my BEI's [ PRAWN WITH LAMB CHOP ]

erm.....actually almost the same

and i try to eat a little lamb even i do not eat b4

so far so good

just taking some photo to keep the memorise

CHRISTMAS

等下要和贝出去了
现在在等他来载
那么晚了 不能去哪里了吧
也不会有什么特别的庆祝
当然也不会有惊喜

心在就已经觉得闷了
等下出道曲会怎样呢？

又是一个无聊的圣诞节吧····

THE GIRL WHO REALLY LOVE YOU

真正爱你的女孩，虽然嘴上讨厌你说她小笨笨，可心理却很高兴。
真正爱你的女孩，在受委屈的时候总是第一个想到你。
真正爱你的女孩，在你迟到的时候责怪你，不是真的骂你，而是珍惜每一次和你在一起。
真正爱你的女孩，真的很小气，眼里容不下一粒沙。
真正爱你的女孩，每次生气故作没有消气，只是想听你来哄自己。
真正爱你的女孩，会陪你一起看你最喜欢的节目，即便是自己最讨厌的。
真正爱你的女孩，总是要你慢点吃，因为怕你会得胃病。
真正爱你的女孩，会不厌其烦地规劝你戒烟，即便她知道这是不可能的事情。
真正爱你的女孩，会陪你一起打游戏，看你打游戏，无论是不是自己喜欢的。
真正爱你的女孩，会收集你最喜欢的东西，因为只要你高兴。
真正爱你的女孩，不论在嘴上怎么挑剔，在她心里还是最爱你。
真正爱你的女孩，很容易被你感动，哪怕是一件极小的事情。
真正爱你的女孩，即使能独当一面，在你面前也会娇滴滴。
真正爱你的女孩，当有人欺负你，会比你更气愤，不顾什么淑女形象和你一起大骂对方，直到消气。
真正爱你的女孩，不论你有没有成绩都会一直鼓励你。
真正爱你的女孩，会不停的拉倒你，其实那是对你的关心。
真正爱你的女孩, 会在自己的好朋友面前不断的提到你，因为她也想让朋友们了解你。
真正爱你的女孩，不喜欢你有什么事都自己一个人承担，那样她会更加担心。
真正爱你的女孩，每次和你聊天都舍不得自己关掉语音或是挂掉电话，都会等你挂了之后才安心。
所以，男孩一定要珍惜爱你的女孩！！！

CAPTURE with BEI

OUR BREAKFAST + LUNCH AT MIDVALLEY

YUMMY YUMMY

GOING TO 1U LUU

SWEET SWEET

WAKAKA

OUR FIRST TIME TAKING THIS

FUNNY

MUACKZ.....

和贝共度の一天

昨天和贝去逛街
下午 我们去了MIDVALLEY 过后没有一下子就去 1 U
去买戏票鲁
有点不喜欢 1U 的戏院
因为没有 COUPLE SEAT
算咯 每次都是将
没有和贝坐过 COUPLE SEAT 咯

买了 ZOMBIELAND
嘻嘻 然后我们就去拍大头贴啦
我要的 因为没有和他拍过
照片迟点再上传

拍了咯
可爱的贝没有拍过
我又是第一次和他一起拍
两个都不懂怎样办
动作硬到··········
算咯 第一次是这样的啦
拍多几次都不会了

然后进场看戏
ZOMBIELAND 不恐怖的
很搞笑
不过有一点恶心

看完后就逛逛咯
看到贝有点无聊
什么也没有买到
回家鲁······

CHANGE

X'mas is comming soon
SPM was over

all ppl will growing up in future i thk
viewed some ppl's blog
feel like everyone wanted to change their ownself after graduate
of course me too

changing the dress & look
coloured the hair
changing their minded
changing all the things from child

i wanna to change too but why like nothing to change?
what should i change or what i need to change
feel like nothing and dunno where to start

is that i m already change myself early then them ?
my look and dress already change b4 my SPM???
i m edi start to change everythg when all the ppl hardworking to prepare the SPM
but why i feel still missing somethg whenever i start to change myself???
of course i feel dissaticfied for my overall
hardworking to learn how to dress up myself
need to GAMBATEH to make myself more and more MATURE

bcoz of my BEI
i need to restock all my cosmetic
to make myself more and more pretty when hanging out with him
and choose some clothes that lady and abit mature
i thk he will love me more n more when see me
hahahahaha

HOPE EVERYONE WILL BE SUCCESSFUL IN FUTURE

thats all for my post
^.~

BORED LIFE

hermp...
my life is quiet bored recently
juz start working after finish my SPM
actually cant earn a lot
juz a part time job.
but make my life bored...

GIRLS MUST NEED TO KNOW

女子要知道的事。
女子选男朋友要记得三件事∶

1.知道自己有什么。
2.知道自己要什么。
3.知道自己有的东西给到你要的东西吗？？


如果您男朋友给不到你要的东西，那你不要哦。。（比如∶安全感，照顾你，疼你这些之类的）

以下的男子是不可以要的∶

1.对你不好，比如打你，骂你，欺负你，在背后说你（哪有男朋友说自己女朋友坏话的）
2.对你不专一，不可以花心/没本心/口花花（只可以对女朋友口花花而已）
3.没事业的男子，如果他还要你养他，用你的钱，做小白脸（更本就没有了男子的自尊）
4.败家子，和家里要钱（难道你父母养你一世呀，男子要事业为重哦）
5.喝酒，赌博，抽烟，吸毒，叫鸡的男子，是不可以要的（因为不尊重你，不把你放在心）

男朋友应该要的条件=
爱你，疼你，照顾你，对你好，对我专一，什么事都和你说，和你讨论， 有事业，有前途，把你放在心里，尊重你也要尊重你家人，不可以赌博(有都久久一次，不可以上瘾)， 不可以抽烟(要抽度不可以在我面前和家人前抽)，不可以喝酒(只可以久久一次)，不可以吸毒，叫鸡(因为他很肮脏)，不可以逼我做不爱的事。。


女朋友应该要的条件=
爱他，疼他，照顾他，对他好，对他专一，不可以在大众地方和他吵架，要给完他面子(有什么不满意回家说，脸色也不可以变，要做到很大方)，做什么要和他讨论，他在做工的话，每重要的事就不要打扰他，要尊重他和他家人，他要你嫁了给他不要他做工就最好(哈哈)，不可以背叛他，不可以抽烟，喝酒，赌博，吸毒，跟其他男子搞暧昧


如果你身边有一个这样好的女朋友你还去背叛她的话，分了后，男子会给人家说而已。。
如果你身边也有一个这样的男朋友，你去偷吃，分了后，女子就给人说犯贱哦。。

你们身边已经有一个情人了，就不要对不起他们吧，好好珍惜他们，因为一旦失去了，你可能会后悔，也可能是你们的遗憾哦。。
好好珍惜眼前人，活在当下就要珍惜当下哦。。

贱男の失败

前两天 看见那女子受害者在Facebook写了些东西
结果自己就忍不住的回复了留言
叫她小心刚认识的那某某男生
结果他问我是不是知道些什么
我没有回答她 因为不想干涩其中

就只是顺口劝了劝她
告诉她
“刚认识不久的男生不可能会对你那么的好，他对你说的，做的，都不要尽信···是真的···信我···”
结果她回答我说知道了
其实那个时候不知道她是不是有在听进去
就只是问心无愧的劝了她
能做的都已经做了
毕竟我了解 如果那个时候真的选择去相信那个人
在自己眼里 别人说的话都只会是重伤

刚刚看了Facebook
那女生告诉我说她了解清楚整件事情了
她和我说谢谢
有一点开心 她终于醒悟了
不像我以前那样
傻傻的 明知自己被骗还选择相信
她 绝对比我聪明

有一点帮到人的感觉
谢谢自己的良心



最近这个问题一直令到我和我的贝吵架
贝是说他没有要帮任何一方
只是不想看到一对那么久的情侣分开
但是站在我自己的立场
我觉得 如果我是那个女生
我宁愿选择和这样的一个贱男分开 也不要傻傻的被骗
这样的一个男生 根本就不值得得到原谅
很想给他两巴掌 让他对女生尊重一点
不要把女生当成是玩具！！！



至于那位贱男男主角是谁 我很想很想大声公布
很多“她们” 都很想知道吧···
可是············
算了吧····
大家心里知道就好···
知道有某某人很怀疑是不是她们心想的那个人
你们觉得是就是 不是就不是吧
要不要相信你们心想的那个人 你们自己去决定吧
我不想再牵涉其中了


除此以外 我不想再因为这件事情 和我的贝吵架
其实我们的想法都没有错 只是立场不同
但是讲讲下 真的真的令我很 火滚
对不起贝
放弃这件事吧 我们什么都不要管了
贝 我爱你

敢作敢当

首先我要说的是
这里的每一篇文章 每一句话 每一个字 都是我写的
我敢作敢当 敢写敢认

至于谁要上来看我写的文章我不知道
也没有特别阻止谁上来这里看我的文章
我写的那篇“BETRAY & CHEATING”
如果某某男主角看了很生气的话 我没办法
毕竟这是我的自由去写任何东西
而且我没有指名道姓 请不要对号入座

那篇文章我是一定不会删掉
因为我觉得自己没有错
某某男主角 自己做错事 请不要怪在别人的头上
拜托！ 男人大丈夫 敢做就敢当！ 把自己的过错怪在别人头上 算是男人吗？！
纸是报不住火的
要为自己做的东西负责 更要承担后果

更何况我不觉得删掉我的文章对某某男主角有什么好处
叫我男朋友来告诉我这些没有用
也不要怪在我男朋友的头上
如果要骂要不爽的话就冲着我来
我根本没有担心过

有任何人看到我的文章也不是我的问题
毕竟我没有刻意的去藏起来
任何人都有权利去看
结果是某某男主角自己造成
一篇文章根本不是什么大问题

没有要得罪任何人
可是希望某某男主角 尊重人权
谢谢

倒数十天

我就要和我的中学生涯说BYEBYE了
问自己到底有没有一丝的不舍
心里的回答 是没有
为什么呢 一千一百万个为什么
很多人都喜欢无忧无虑的中学生涯
过着和朋友淅沥哗啦的日子
有着一班班的好朋友好姐妹

而我 告诉全世界
我的中学生涯 一点都不开心
没有很多很多的朋友
也没有很多很多的倾诉对象
我不喜欢我的中学生涯
或许曾经是喜欢过 但是没有东西值得我留恋

朋友 这样东西 在中学里 是不会长久的
本人 领教过很多很多
背叛 欺骗 心机 心计
所以 对我而言 自称姐妹的是无知和白痴
所谓的姐妹 在我身上留下的
只是一句一句的谎话 还有一刀一刀刺进心里的小动作
除此以外 背后一段一段的讽刺和是非
那你们觉得 我有必要对这样的中学生涯留恋吗

学校对我而言 只是人生中必定要经过的一个阶段
真心的对待每一个朋友
但是到最后换来的只是冷言冷语
班上的某些人觉得 以前和我无所不谈
但如今和我就像不熟悉的
是我的错吗？
是我先开始的吗？
可以很肯定的告诉你们！
不是！！！

争论根本一点意义也没有
所以选择放弃辩论的机会
每个人都有不同的性格 想法 思想
人合人缘吧 不适合 相处不来就算了吧

不过说真的
最近真的蛮开心的
可能和班上的聚会多了吧
可以玩在一起了
一起有说有笑了
考试了 彼此对彼此的鼓励和加油
多了一份轻松的心情

唯独一个人
无论班上的聚会再多
参与的人再多
我都无法在和那个人讲话和沟通
或许是自己太小气了吧
觉得那个人之前真的很够离谱和过分
看到他就觉得不想和将的人讲话！
不是讨厌他！
只是觉得不是我的错
我没有必要低声下气去和一个这样的人和好
我不可能让这样的人欺负到上头也忍气吞声当没事
既然当初他这样做 就预料到了今天的结果
说我小气也好 说我什么也罢了
我觉得自己不需要那么的委屈
反正他对我而言
一点点点点重要性都没有

算了 越讲越生气
班上的同学和朋友们
以后还有保持联络的
相信以后也会有聚会
虽然我不会留恋中学时期的生活
但我还会珍惜我所认识的朋友
P/s: 除了那个人


就这样咯
好好珍惜这十天相处见面的机会

BETRAY & CHEATING 背叛&欺骗

昨天 某位男性朋友打了通电话给我
拜托我做某些事情
问他为什么 突然间 听到了很奇怪的声音
是哭泣的声音
为什么无端端哭泣 一百万个问号

原来 他和女朋友分手了
那女生 我认识
他们 是我遇过 和觉得最不可能在一起的一对
结果 他们在一起了 有一点惊讶
大概有一年多了吧
突然间告诉我这些 还哭成这样 有一点吓到
他说 那女的 要求分手
已经分开了一个礼拜
原因是因为那女的说对他已经闷了
而且 对另外一个男生有了好感

出乎意料之外 那个男生我知道
那个男生 不是有了女朋友吗？！
还是五六年了的女朋友！
为什么会追求着那个女的呢？
他片那女的说 已经和自己的女朋友分手了
那女的 相信

据我所知 那男的和他的女朋友没有分开 也不可能会分开
但是她却用了那样的手段 去骗取一个女生对他的心
令那女生 为了认识不到两个礼拜的他 放弃了一个两年的男朋友

其实 我根本不想去干涩别人的感情是
因为我自己曾经深受其害（不过不是这个男生啦）
知道那种感受
一个男生追求你 告诉你他已经和女友分手了
但是到最后 才知道他们从来没有分开过
那种感觉超难受

也没有要帮那位女生
只是看不过眼有这样的男生
这样的男生 背着自己的女朋友在外面偷吃
还骗了另外一个女生
真的真的受不了这样的男生！！！！
为什么会有这样贱的男生？！
我真的真的看不过眼
很讨厌
这已经是夹着了背叛和欺骗！

现在的我 很矛盾
不知道应不应该告诉那衰男生的女朋友！
他的女友我不认识
本来打算告诉他女朋友的妹妹
她妹妹我认识
很犹豫

怕自己一旦说了 会把事情搞大
怕是自己太多管闲事
怕会有什么事情发生

但是如果不说
我自己有很看不过眼
怕以后那女的有什么伤害的时候
自己良心会过意不去
毕竟自己知道了这些
不告诉实话 我真的过不到自己的良心

到底我应该怎么办呢？？？
谁可以给些意见我？？？

SPM

erm....
what to blog ?
i m busy for my spm recently...
maybe the time is realy not enough us to do the remain thgs...
so it is really busy and tired..
no time to take photo
no time to shopping
no time to hang out
no time rest at all

almost tuition everyday
noon till night
after exam still going to tuition till night
damn damn damn tired..

but luckily yesterday was the last day exam for this week
add math gone
we can take a rest for nex week exam
after add math i was going to just k with stephy to relax
erm...
long time din go sing k...
like strange

today we was going to brem mall for study account
herm...
all ppl no mood to study ya..
all decided to go to sing k
then go luu.... no choice
i din hav my breakfast untill 4pm
my hand and leg like no strength
and my sweat cum out with cold..
damn no mood to sing

talk about me and my BEI
we are no argue recently
and less chating ba...
maybe i m too tired for my exam..
so when he bek till home i edi sleep
dunno why leh...

tats all for my recently...

DAMN FUCKING

Just now i was sign in my msn
then a ppl called nick ( kelvin890119@hotmail.com )
and his personal msg wrote ( b my gf, i will giv you a lot $$ )
he find me and then ask me that we got chat before onot
then i tell him dunno

he ask me to show webcam and send me the invitation
then i say i dun wan to show
tell him that i wont simply to show my wedcam to others ppl
for fun, i ask him to show me his webcam
he keep asking me to let him see my face even just 1 minutes
then i say dun wan

i keep asking him show me his webcam for funny
coz i tot nothing different
he keep telling me that he is bad
ask me to promise him dun to angry

finally he show me and open webcam
then i only can see his hand and the mouse
i tot he just wan play with me then i ask him to show face
he asked me can see onot but i juz saw black black
tell him why only show me black???

then let me see clearly
he only adjust the webcam to show his waist ( lower half of his body )
i tot he is only not yet adjust properly
then i m just waiting

SUDDENLY HE STAND UP!!!!
AND FACING HIS WAIST TO THE WEBCAM
I DON'T KNOW WHAT HE WANTED TO DO AT THE MOMENT
I TOT HE ONLY STAND UP TO ADJUST SOMETHING OR WHAT!
HE PULL DOWN THE ZIP OF THE PANTS!!!!!!!!
AND HE WANTED TO TAKING OUT SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I CAN SEE WHAT HE TAKING OUT!!!!!!!
IF I DIN CLOSE THE WINDOW AT THE FIRST TIME
I CAN EVER SEE WHAT HE WANTED TO DO!!!!
OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THEN I STRAIGHT AWAY CLICK X TO CLOSE THE WINDOW!

after that he ask me m i angry
say that he only wan to make me happy
what the fuck!
Damn badluck to meet this kind of thing
BLOCK HIM!!!!!!!

so everybody please BECAREFUL
ESPECIALLY GIRLS !!!
BLOCK THIS GUY WHEN YOU SEE THIS EMAIL ADD

( kelvin890119@hotmail.com )

AGAIN AGAin again

4:00a.m
argue with him again and again
i tot today will nothing happened
coz i m trying to make him happy

when he reach his place
he text me with a damn bad tone
told me that if i dun like then just dun to sms
what the hell when i saw the msg

then i straight away call back to ask for reason
then he tell me he was damn piss off
what the?!
tat is non of my business ok?!
why like all my fault?!
fine
i tried to ask him what was happened
then he tell me everything about his working problem

on the half way we chat
he tell me that his friend find him out to yam cha
ok fine
i knew he was damn damn unhappy
so i let him go and he promise me that he will back early

how i know what he means early is 2:13a.m
damn damn damn angry
coz he went to cyber cafe
what the...!
nothing can say actually

he say he just dun wan to back home then face 4 wall
but how about me?!
i m not facing 4 wall when i m waiting for you?!

and at the last
he said that i m so trouble again!
i want to mention!
never had a boy say that i m so trouble even once
especially my boyfriend oso never said me as a trouble girl
what ppl never did but he did
so.............
should i feeling sad or angry?
my heart keep breaking and bleeding now
thats all............................

BROKEN

4:10a.m
i haven sleep yet
juz now argue again with him
i thk he is already in his dreamz
but wat i did now is juz only sit in front of the computer
writing dowm what was happened juz now

actually i dunno how to tell
dunno why we got a lot of argue in juz few days
2 day little ces 3 day a big ces
i really dun wanna bcum that
but dunno why i always easy to get angry on what he did

what i feel piss off is
he dun understand me
i duno whether he really dun understand girls or dun understand me
he dunno that sometime when girls said dunwan but she means want
and sometime girls not telling not bcoz of she dun wan to tell
juz sometime girls do the thgs depends on their feeling
feeling is hard to tell
so....can you pls be clever?

i know i supose to show understanding and sympathy for you
but can you pls try to stand on my side and feel what my feeling
i felt angry not bcoz fo you cant accompany me
why you always misunderstood
juz sometime you told me something but at last you cant do it
i m really so hate that
if you not sure that you can 100% confirm to do something then pls dun tell me or either try to promise me can?
i know you are not purpoely to break your promise
but when you really cant observe ur promise i will really sad

you know my heart was broken slowly now
everytime you break ur promise
or either you forgot what you promise
i will tot that, m i not important to you?
i know you dun hav such meaning
but this is really my feeling at the moment that you forgot something

what i feel deeply sad is
you said me trouble
make you in painful
ya....
i m a trouble girl
only know to argue with you
i cant do anything to make you happy
maybe i dun have such qualification to be your girlfriend
i m so sorry

my eyes so painful now
and unfortunately my period coming
damn damn damn painful
i m not blame on you
just.............
i really need you always on my mind

BEI 贝

long time din talking about my BEI edi
he must so jealous
hahaha
okay... let me writing something about us for what we happened recently

last week i had a big big argue with him
argue till like really want to break
coz i m so easy to get angry
some time my emotion will make him get crazy and dunno what should do
that time i think he is really tired to explain and tolerant
so when i said i want to break
he juz say watever i want
i want break then just break

my heart was broken at the moment
i know this time wat i did on him is really a bit tick
but i will not take back my word

after he hang up my phone
i was juz cried inside my pillow
my tears was like the never stop raining
but after a few minutes
he call me back
he said juznow was juz a furios word
but i really decide to break bcoz of our problems

finally i hang up the phone and go to the bed
the second day
i din find him anymore
he keep text me but i never reply
my heart was tasteless
i dunno why we will get this outcome
however
there were really a lot of problems between us

at the night of the second day
we chat seriously and talk about the problems
i know he was always tolerate to me
i always easy to get angry
all bcoz of our personality

then we know the problems finally
we need to changing ourselves to be in tone with both of us if we still wanna to get back

now we are try to changing ourself nicely
both of us need to try to realize
and i know i need to reflection my emotion

SORRY BEI
i know my emotion is really so childish
now i m promise you i will change
i thk you will see my alter at last
right
i hope you will love me much and much
coz i know i love you deep deeply
MUACKZ~~~~~~~~~~~

PERFECT SMILE

i love this photo
not bcoz of i taking this photo with who was beside me
is bcoz of my optimistic smile

I love this perfect smiling
this is my optimistic smile
i dunno when i started to smile like this to take photo

i remember that since i love to capture myself
i never or less to smile like this
smile till show my teeth

i like to show my teeth to take photo now
how a perfect smiling and it is reall happy and show optimistic
i love it

WHAT THE....................

Juz now i was show my mum that my little dress
i capture it by used my phone
i felt it is a nice dress and look pretty
thats why i show my mum and ask for some coment

how i know she very unhappy and looks like get angry
it is really damn imposible she show me the face and the tone she scolded me
she say that i should not always taking photo by self
and scold me that later will let ppl post to some webside

and what she said is
what i take photo with a clothes tat looks like underwear(bra)
what the............
i dunno what i should say at the moment
i never taking a photo with a clothes that was looked like underwear
OMG...

how i know i m juz showing my photo to her will make her so angry
if i know early then i wont show her anymore
last few time i show her my photo she will had a joke with me
but i duno why this time will get a big big different treating

i know she is concern to me and she is really worried about it
but the scolding coming so suddenly
i really dunno what respond i need to give

i m very angry when she scolding me suddenly with this kind of reason
dunno why i felt watever i did recently are totally wrong in their eyes
m i really did something wrong or either they really dun trust me
however
they are still my parents
i cant do anythings to them

what i can do now is be patient and waiting for the last day to take my last subject exam
i think i will get back my freedom after that

GRADUATION

LETS SHOW YOU OUR GRADUATION DAY's PHOTO

PERFECT SMILING

NO TITLE

erm...
actually a lot of things happen these few days...
but i m not going to mention all
coz it is too long story
lazy to writing out...
i wanted to use photo to talk about the story...

erm...
last saturday we had a 5C party held in my place
and all classmate attend this party
it is really happy ....

next...
today is our Majlis Graduation
erm...
keep taking photo ...


PHOTO WILL BE UPLOAD SOON

DAMN ANGRY

Last 2 day i was going to WONG KOK for study with Stephy

then we study till very tired and wanna to relax

bcoz whole day study add math

very pain

then stephy decide going to sing k for a while

i called my mum for permision

how i know my mum will scolding me

she say that my dad go to find me but din saw me

wat the hell!!!!!!!!

damn damn damn angry!!!!

check me again!!!!!!

i really whole day sit inside WONG KOK restaurant!!!

still dun believe me!!!!

if dun believe me then go and ask the waiter and waitress there!!!

i am sure that they can b my witness!!!

when i reach home my dad looked like dun trust me!!

he ask that m i really there for whole day

damn PISS OFF

dont want to talk to them anymore at the day!!!!

一目了然

嗯···

今天要写点什么呢···

就很久都没有写了···有点···

就写上两个星期发生的事吧

妈妈知道后 我就鼓起了勇气 想妈妈坦白了一切

告诉妈妈一切 实话

也告诉了他我的感受

不知道妈妈接不接收

也不知道妈妈喜不喜欢我这样说话

但是唯一能确定的是

我的心 舒服了很多

妈妈问我 为什么不早点告诉他一切

如果说了出来 现在的我就不会那么的辛苦了

其实也对 但只怪自己没胆

边说边哭

其实不知道自己为了什么哭

是觉得 希望妈妈能了解 能接受吧

不久

爸爸回来了

很像很像连爸爸也坦白

但是毕竟自己做不到

结果弟弟帮我开口了

只说了一句

爸爸就开始和我说了好多好多

向我解释他的不允许

向我解释他想要保护我的心情

向我解释他对我的爱

让我知道了很多

知道了一件事情

爸爸原来帮我出头了

叫上一个他“你不要伤害我的女儿！”

所以才不敢/少了来家里

听了 感动

爸爸讲几久 我就哭了几久

连爸爸自己 也掉泪了

看到爸爸这样 我更难过了

对不起爸爸

对不起爸爸妈妈

明白你们的苦心和为我担心

可是我还是坚持了

坚持了和他在一起

既然我选择了和他在一起

那现在我就要坚持

我爱他

GEMINI

GEMINI (Irresistible)

Nice.

Love is one of a kind.

Great listeners.

Very Good in the you know where ...

Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out.

Trustworthy..

Always happy.

Loud.

Talkative.

Outgoing VERY FORGIVING.

Loves to make out.

Has a beautiful smile.

Generous.

Strong.

THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE..

Eunis's Birthday

19/10 was eunis's birthday

we went to timesquare and sungei wang

erm.....

ntg different

when we reached there then went to had our lunch at VERYTHAI

damn expensive lo......

then after tat walked to sungei wang for shopping

long time din take photosticker edi

i pay for that coz eunis was in the breadline

long time din take edi

dunno how to pose

not so nice

i wanted to buy a lot of thgs actually

but dunno why like ntg can buy

walk edi a few hours

then finally bek luu...

原来 她知道

原来妈妈都知道
知道了所有 一切

妈妈知道了 我瞒着她和他出去
妈妈知道了 他在隔壁工作
妈妈知道了 我经常和他出去

妈妈生气了 或许不是
我知道妈妈是难过 是心痛
对不起 妈妈
原谅我

其实很早就已经很想对你坦白
可是因为自己没有 没有勇气
就是因为我的胆小 造成现在的结果
对不起妈妈
真的真的很对不起
真的真的很想告诉你一切
真的只是开口迟了

后悔
后悔没有勇气告诉你真相
后悔满了你那么久

讨厌
讨厌这样的自己
讨厌自己那么没胆
讨厌自己那么··········

对不起妈妈
希望你能原谅我
很想好好跟你谈谈
真的 真的没有勇气去面对你
害怕你更伤心 害怕你更难过
是我这个坏女儿令到你这样
对不起

冷战

从没试过冷战
可是 今天就发生了
因为昨晚 发生了些争执
其实明明就没事
不知道为什么就突然吵了起来

心痛
昨天他对我所说的
一句一句都铭记在心 直到现在
忘记不了他那种语气 那种态度
那个时候
真的觉得 他收藏已久的心底话 都说了出来
是我的错吧
刁蛮 任性 无理取闹 乱发脾气
但是 昨晚 我真的真的没有生气
可是 他的不相信 令我无话可说
结果 吵了起来

跟他说了一句话
以为他会在意 吃醋 生气 甚至紧张
结果 得到的答案是 （好啦··你去吧··）
心 已经碎了
痛的 眼泪掉了
晚了 带着眼泪入睡

早晨 看见电话的通话记录
知道他有打过给我 我也有接
但是我一点印象也没有

早上 没有心情 也没有信息他
觉得他不再期待电话上出现我的信息
觉得 如今他心目中的我 只是个喜欢无理取闹的小孩子
他的信息 很明显不知道我在气什么
其实 除了气 还有心碎 还有心痛
因为这些 我变得冷漠
不知道为什么 觉得沟通不了
心也淡了 一点味觉也没了 比任何的食物 都来得更淡

工作
原来他告诉他的同事 因为他晚归 所以我发脾气
原来 他真的真的不知道
一直不停的追问我 到底在气什么
我不想讲了
不是因为不想告诉他 只是觉得无趣了
同一个原因 同一个问题 讲了好多好多次
但是结果就是 我的无理取闹和我的坏脾气
所以 多说也没用
还是那句 心淡了

为了这个理由
又开始折磨自己了
不想吃东西 没有胃口
明明就很饿 但是 为了赌气 为了气他
以为他会心痛
原来只是我的白痴！

哭泣
忍不住了
眼泪都迫不及待的跑出来了
躲到后面
一个人坐在椅子上 眼泪不停的掉落
但是 无补于事
他不在场 也不知道
而且 如果他在 也没有什么吧
他最讨厌我哭
会觉得烦吧

如果我的心一直是这样的淡下去
结果会是怎样

想给妈妈的话

好想好想跟妈妈聊心事
很希望可以跟他聊 我和他的事
我和他发生的 都想和妈妈聊
希望妈妈能够给我意见 给我鼓励

就是因为上一次我什么都不说
所以发生了很大件事
但是现在的我 很希望可以跟妈妈说我的全部
可是不可以
怕说了 妈妈会反对 会生气

很不想欺骗妈妈
不想瞒着妈妈和他出去
不想说谎 也很想可以光明正大 得到认同
但是毕竟我和他需要相处
我不能委屈他
因为我爱他 我选择了他
选择了跟他在一起 就要为他着想
所以有时候会有迫不得已的欺骗

对不起妈妈
其实很内疚
根本就不想说谎
如果我跟他可以光明正大
爸爸妈妈都能理解
那有多好
我知道爸爸妈妈是想保护我
但是 这一刻真的真的很辛苦

期待有一天他能载着我 直接到我家门口
期待那一天他能接我上下课
期待那一天他能接我上下班
期待着那一天可以光明磊落的和他出去
期待着能够和他做很多情侣都能做的事
期待着爸爸妈妈能够了解我现在的心情

妈妈
其实欺骗也需要很大的勇气
欺骗也让我很过意不去
如果可以的话 我根本不想欺骗
因为我爱他 更爱你们
难道我不能同时拥有爸爸妈妈对我的信任和爱情吗
你们对我的保护 已经足够
能够试试让我自己去体会吗

如果有了你们的同意 有了你们的支持
我和他就没有必要偷偷摸摸
和他出去也不需要找任何的借口
如果我和他能够光明正大
你们也不会再担心我到底在哪里
也不需要在担心我到底有没有说谎
找不到我的时候
也可以随时随地找他
那该有多好

多渴望我的生活可以这样
不受约束
为什么爸爸妈妈不能够是看接受我的决定
是不是因为上次感情的失败和伤害
而照成现在他们对我的不信任
为什么他们不能换个角度想
走了一个失败的
或许这个会是更好的
为什么就不能鼓励一下我

妈妈
真的真的很想跟你聊心事
但是为什么现在就是不可以

勇气

不知道为什么 在这一刻很想把很多很多的东西写下来
一时的感触 有一股推动力
让自己的手 不由自主的 在键盘上游动
但是 想说的 想写的 想表达的 不一定全都能出现
我 会词穷 也会词不达意
或许 自己的手和自己的脑袋没有默契吧

没有写日记这几天 发生了很多很多
先说
这一刻的我 心里很不舒服 很想哭泣
不知道是不是因为KIMI的事情
发生在她身上的 跟我的经历 都有同样的伤
所以有时会不知所措
我的意见 不知道能不能帮她
但是 就是一时感触

除此之外
我和他的问题
爸爸妈妈 到底几时才能接受
昨天被妈妈看见了他
很生气的对我说
问我为什么要偷偷摸摸 鬼鬼祟祟
妈妈也知道
我不知骗他一次
原来妈妈都知道 只是都没有说出来

那一刻
很想告诉妈妈 一切
很想告诉妈妈 我和他的全部
不想欺骗 要知道 其实骗人很辛苦
尤其是骗我最亲爱的妈妈和爸爸
很了解他们对我的疼爱
可是我希望他们能够相信我
到底要怎么做 爸爸妈妈才能相信我的决定

犹豫
爸爸妈妈 说的 看得 会不会是正确
到底我现在爱的这个人 在以后会是怎样
现在的我 坚决的告诉人 我没有爱错
但是 谁晓得以后的我们
会是怎样的结局

最近的一切
已经让我再也没有力气去承受
没有勇气去面对
根本就想把自己关起来
避开所有的不愉快
逃避 就是我的专长
很讨厌这样没用的自己

MY COLLEAGUE

YAN, JOAN, PING, CARMEN, KIMI, CHLOE

MATURE KIMI, HOPE I CAN LEARN FROM HER




MY LOOK AT SUMMER HOUSE

FUNNY CARMEN, REALLY FUNNY

All my colleague here

my working place is so funny

i m so happy and enjoy

love summer house so much

love all my colleague so much

MUACKZ

声音破裂

喉咙痛啊！！！

前两天就开始喉咙痛了
昨天更是痛到不想说话
做工的时候，一讲话就便声音
真的是救命
同时还觉得很不习惯因为我少说话
没办法
痛到想死
拼命的喝水 真是奇迹

昨晚
和贝吵架
更是破音
对不起贝
或许不舒服
胃痛喉咙痛
觉得需要你
但你却·······
所以昨天有点过分
对不起

今天一早
妈妈叫我起来
因为贝不让我去上课
也不让我去做工
只好不去咯
睡觉

今天也是讲不到话
声音沙到
救命······················
就来生病了啦·······················

CONFIDENCE

I am a girl that who don't have any confidence
don't know why i will feel inferior beside my friends
haiz



when the first day i started working there
i knew i need to dress up myself to match there
cannot wear too simple to working



don't know started from when i felt lazy to dress up
always t-shirt and short pant
always white and less colour
go out with friend with simple look



but i like casual wear
like simple
maybe because of this reason
start to wear simple
already forget how to dress up



but i start to find out my confidence recently
i wanna to find out my confidence
start to buy clothes lah



erm
no dare to wear blue clothes before
but now my colleague tell that blue is nice
then said i wear blue is nice
then buy jor luu



haiyaya
start to find out all my accersary
earing la
necklace la

haiz


my colleague say i got abit confidence jor leh
happy
hope i can keep my confidence

i want to buy so many things to dress up myself leh
i want a lot of accesary
wakakakaka
waste edi a lot of money leh...
but never mind lah
i wan leng leng
hahha

HOLIDAY

我的假期可以说过的一点都不丰富
因为都要做工
从早做到晚
想睡迟一点点都不可以啊

累死我哦
没有想到买衣服都可以将忙
看人家做买衣服的很香很的空降
原来不是
尤其是来货的时候
人又多的时候
还有一些讨人厌的顾客来的时候
麻烦的顾客来的时候
挑剔的顾客来的时候

真的真的累死
但是又不能怎样


重点是
在那边做工我买了很多衣服啊！
一个月就拿了五件！
RM160
月尾出粮的时候一定只剩一点点
因为是扣粮的

我的妈丫
就预了自己会这样
嗨
算了
因为做买衣服的都要打扮得美美的
没办法咯

光明正大

今天可以说是开心的一天吧

怎么说呢
今天是久久一次光明正大的 和贝一起出去
嘻嘻嘻嘻
因为今天爸爸不在家
所以就跟妈妈将要和贝一起出去
因为难得我休息 他又休息

早上贝就来载我了哦
然后我们就去 MENJALARA 吃东西
讨厌贝一直zat我吃东西
我都飞了很多咯！
脸也圆圆了····臭贝
不过知道贝很疼我啦
爱他

然后就去呗的新家看看咯
就在那边逗留了蛮久的

然后就去TIMESQUARE
贝本来要看戏
但是每套戏都很晚 所以就没有看咯
哈哈哈哈
然我我们就去吃东东
在gasoline 吃
不好吃的

算咯
因为今天婆婆一个人在家
妈妈就打电话来吹我早点回家
嗨
对不起我的贝
难得一次和贝出去都要酱赶
对不起对不起

知道贝有点不开心
但是又不知道要怎样安慰
只能说
对不起

BORED

i think my blog will quiet bored recently
coz working everyday
nothing special and nothing happen

after school then working
after working then sleeping
after wake up then going to skul

haiz...
my life bcum bored and tasteless
what can i say is only boring

haiz...
sienz

NOTHING DIFFERENT

nothing different for my last saturday and sunday
juz edi got abit close with carmen and kimi

actually they were very nice
and very friendly leh
funny also

actually carmen was a very funny gal
she can change n change
like sometime she will sven
but sometime she will talk expletives
wakaka

then next i walk talk about KIMI
she is the girl that very feminine
admire her leh
thin tall pretty and fashionable
haiz...
if i can be like that is really gud
but..........................................

k lah....
that all for this two girl...

SECOND DAY WORKING

4.9.2009


erm....
long time din blog recently...
coz recently is really busy and tired...
no time to touch my computer
hahahahaha

tis post writing about the second day i working at SUMMER HOUSE
the second day i working at there was very strange
coz CARMEN and KIMI i think
they were off when the first day i working
but then the second day din talk too much to them at the second day
so like a bit bored

but at the nite
something happened make me shame and a bit happy
wakakakaka
the something is...................
secret
tats all for the second day i working there....

FIRST DAY WORKING

yesterday was my first day working there
the name of the shop called SUMMER HOUSE
go after skul luu
hahahaha
actually my mum and dad ask me go myself by bus
how i know when i back from skul then receive my mum's call
then she tell me that my brother come bek to fetch me go
wakakaka
happy luu
dunnid to walking ang dunid waste my money too ^.~
LOVE MUMMY & GORGOR SO MUCH LAH

erm
actually i m very scared to face stranger
because till now my jobs are always got friend there
so yesterday was abit scared
when i go inside then told them that today is the first day i working here
then they ask me to fill up a form
after that, they teach me how to work and teach me to serve customer
erm
different with last few time i work
don't know how to say

they were so so so funny and talkative
i tot will no topic with them but finally i know i was wrong
they were so nice and.........
hahahaha
the first time i working with a interesting enviroment
nice and kind people

i knew YAN , PING , YING
hahahaha
they keep asking me about something
laugh till...........
then they keep laughing bcoz of someone keep coming here
it is really funny job

then i will keep working there bcoz I LOVE THERE
a very funny place

SORRY DEAR

昨天
是很对不起他的一天 也是我觉得很内疚的一天
就临时决定 要和馨莹去the curve
就只是信息告诉他 因为他一定在忙 不敢打给他
所以就告诉他 对不起今天不能陪他

结果到了the curve
他放工了 信息我
就在三跟他说抱歉
问他有没有和朋友出去
他说很累 不要出
但是后来又告诉我说 等下会出去

其实我有感觉他很不爽 很不开心
但是他一直说没事
我感觉自己一直在烦着他 所以就算了

然后怎知道馨莹的爸妈十点就说要回了
当然我不想那么早就回家
然后就去了嘉恩家

还早 就到他家附近喝下茶
他打给我 问我在哪里
就不知道为什么我已告诉他说我在喝茶 他就很想很不爽
结果回到嘉恩家
他就告诉我说他和朋友去喝酒

总觉得他很不爽 很不开心
结果 问他！
他说
本来要上云顶他就特地不去是为了要陪我，结果我本来告诉他在家恩家却又出去了，所以他就发飙了···
看了过后真的真的觉得自己很衰
觉得很内疚 因为放假这个礼拜 我都顾着自己出去玩 很像都没有顾到他
本来我以为他不会怎样 毕竟他可以有自己的节目
原来不是 是我自己太白痴

知道他在喝酒 我也感觉他会喝很多
然后半夜三点多 他说他回到家了
就打给他
说说下我又哭了 真的觉得自己很烦
他很想很生气 他说我明知道他不喜欢看到我哭的
然后他还说 他又没有骂我 又没有将我什么 做么无端端又哭
听到这句话 更想哭了 感觉他嫌我烦了

对不起
其实我会很内疚 是因为他很想有什么不开心 都不告诉我
每次都很像只是我在霹雳巴拉的讲
每次我不开心就向他发泄发脾气
但是我永远都不知道他几时不爽 不开心
感觉他一直在迁就我 再容忍我
那为什么 我不能为他做一点什么

如果 他告诉我说他要陪我 或是像我陪他
我真的可以哪里都不去 立刻回家
为什么他就不不讲
他怕我会玩的不开心
他担心我久久出去一次会不愉快
所以他选择不告诉我 希望我玩的开心点

对不起贝
请原谅我的不体贴
原谅我的白痴
原谅我这个哭包

COUNTDOWN

erm
yesterday go the curve with WING
she suddenly ask me go
when we reach there
like nothing happen n dun hav celebrate MERDEKA
then we tot WING parents will stay here for countdown
how we know 10pm they edi say want to bek

then so bored loh
i din feel that i will bek so early lo
then ask YENN luu
ask her where is she
then she say with her frens and din cum the curve edi
OMG
so thk that bek to WING house 1st then only see whre can go
erm
finally go YENN house
erm
cant accompany dear o
sorry
actually we tot YENN house geh view very nice
how we know no firework this year
GENTING there got
but to far , we cant see

haiz...
YENN's dad dun want fetch me back o....
sad luu....pity
we chat there luu
chat till 3:++am only sleep...

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