ALEX

The 1st time i write a title for him...
actually i dunno what i want to talk about him...
juz feel like i never write a lot about him...


what i know b4 is...in my mind...
i tot he is like a playboy, like to go clubbing...
he was like a boy tat wont care about anythg even u r his gf...

but now...
wat he did on me let me feel that he is not like wat i thk b4...
i dunno whether is true onot lah...
maybe he will lying me...
but wat i feel now is...
he maybe is a very good bf...
maybe he will treat me very good...

if my parents allow me together with him...
i thk we will very happy now...
he like so care about me...
he know the reason that why i cant going out with him...
i scared he cant acept it one day...
but now... at least he can understand my situation...

athough we juz can sms and chating by using phone...
but i believe that we still happy now...
maybe after a month or the second month....
all these will change to bad...
but... i really treasure wat we had now...

A lot of maybe will happen in future...
but now i know that...

- if scared make us to abandom a realation -
- then you wont to try it -
- if you never try it -
- you will never dunno there was a sadness or either happiness waiting in front of us -

so i juz only will try to treat him well now ,
i should not to thk a lot of thgs to let myself suffer n sure not to give trouble to him

Had a NICE DAY

Mayb my fren edi know wat was happen ...
o maybe we got chat a little bit for tat...
so today going back school...
is a very nice view...

in class...
talk with everybody...
joking with everyone...
telling nonsen together...
its feel like going back to b4...
when the mid year we at form 4...

dunno why...
maybe the problems is edi gone...
a lot of MAYBE there...
but i feel is good enough for now...
i hope that we will keep this relation till the end of the year or even we edi not in school...
so...
now really relax in school...
i dun hav such the feeling tat dun wanna to go skul edi...
thx for all my frenz....

PASSING

Yesterday i went to take an exam for UNDANG...
i din study b4...
i juz simply read at the previous day...
then b4 i go to take the exam...
i juz take a look for half an hours only...

i tot this time i will fail..
but during the exam...
so many question i dunno how to answer...
and some i dun sure the answer...

so...
i edi ready to fail...
when i finish...
juz click OK
and then click to view the result...
wakakakaka....
passing...
43 correct...
happy till....

when i back to home...
i call my mum and tell her this news...
then i juz happy ...
ntg jor...
hahahaha....

UNHAPPY

Today is a really unhappy day...
my mum wake me up in the morning...
she say go 'six happiness' to take breakfast...
when i go up to the car...
my 2 brothers was not here...

i ask for where they going...
my mum say [N] fetch them go...
then i ask why he will go?
my mum answer me : he want to go then go lah...
i straight away tell: next time if where he will go then dunnid to ask me go...

after i telling this...
my dad scolding me..
he say why?! : is that bcoz of alex so u hate him?!
i dun wanna to fight back!
bcoz i know wat i tell is juz let him feel tat i help alex!!!
so...wat he want to say juz do it...
i dun want to fight back anymore!
there is no meaning edi!!!

i tot my mum will understand me!!
but actually she dint!!!
i tot she edi know wat kind of ppl is he!!!
but she dint!!!
i m already disappoint...
wat i tell to them is juz rubbish!!!
better i dun want to tell!!!
wat i told they wont listen!!!
they only will feel that i hate him so i say sumthgs bad for he!!!

they only will feel that he like a very good man!!
what they look is juz the appearance of the ppl!!!
they dun trust me!!!
they dun trust wat i talk then y ask me to tell?!
if they dun trust me pls dun ask me anymore!!!
when i tell! but they dun trust!!!
ask me for wat?!

what i telling them is juz let them feel that i slander his viciously...
but what he telling them they will feel that he is correct!
i dun want to let them them bcum sad!
but they got really concern on me onot?!
yes!!! he is always correct in their eyes!!!
but do they thking of me???!
are they know i dun wanna to see him??!
if they know then why still want me to face him?!

they dunno wat he do on me!
i already tell my mum but she still dun understand...
if she really understand y she dunno my feeling?
i only can cry now in my room...
i can do ntg...
they still dunno what kind of ppl is he!!!
they still dunno wat was happen behind them!!!

why they dun understanding me???
how only can let them know wat was happen on me ?!
how only can let them know he really a very horror man?!
how i only can tell them how he treat me recently?!
how only can let them know my heart feeling?!

i already try my best to put down all the thgs!
is he dun wan to let me go!!!
why my parents dunno this????!!!!
i hate him not say that bcoz of alex!!!!
is he really a bad man!!! juz bcoz he can cover himself very gud then only can let you all cant feel that!!!
why nobody to trust me?!!!!
why my dad n mum try to trust him but dun wanna to trust me?!

why they dunno everythgs!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!

一个月

今天···
是我跟他在一起的一个月···
很显然的···他不记得···

这是预料之内吧···
跟他在一起之前和之后···
就知道他不会特别区在乎这些日子···
算了吧···

我知道就好···
虽然他不记得···
是有一点点失望····
但是想了想···就算他真的记得···我也不能出去陪他···
所以···
算了吧····

谁可以当男朋友，谁只能当普通朋友

普通朋友：半夜會找妳打BBS聊天到很晚。
男朋友：半夜看妳還在BBS上會趕你下線(當然妳可以柪個幾分鐘)。

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普通朋友：他會找你出去玩,叫妳放棄報告或翹課。
男朋友：他會催妳快寫作業,或者想要跟你討論功課。

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普通朋友：在你生病時，會講好話關心妳。
男朋友：在你生病時，他會關心到你很煩，而且逼你去看醫生。

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普通朋友：他會盡量說好話來討好妳，妳會覺得他很棒。
男朋友：他所說的話，都是關心妳的！但通常像是在命令妳，妳會覺得他幹麻這麼做。

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普通朋友：他什麼事情都會配合著你，只要你高興。
男朋友：他會幫你辨別是非，但你會覺得他管太多。

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普通朋友：他會說他要給你最大的幸福。
男朋友：他只能給你保證，妳跟他在一起，他是最快樂的。

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普通朋友：他會幫你買消夜，送宵夜，載你上下課。
男朋友：他會幫你買宵夜，不過他會提醒你，吃什麼比較健康。他會載你上下課，不過要他有順路，因為他不能為你而翹課。 因為他翹課，他成績便會不好，成績不好不會有好工作。那你們將來日子怎麼會好過，他會想的很遠。

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普通朋友：他只有想到現在。
男朋友：他已經預見將來，該怎麼自我努力，好給你幸福。


★我要把幸福裝滿.連同我......一起送給你～。。☆

愛上一个人..........如此的甜蜜卻又讓人受傷害
放棄一个人..........如此的難過卻又讓人心碎


珍惜身旁的每一个人,不要等到失去了

才瞭解到遺憾.和後悔是如此的痛苦....

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~※→因為愛你.所以放手還你自由←※~
~※→因為愛你.所以不再讓你困擾←※~
~※→因為愛你.所以寧願自己難過←※~
~※→因為愛你.所以我逼自己離開←※~



如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?
如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?
是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?
是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?

~*~在此祝福全天下所以的有情人~*~
~*~都能夠忠誠眷屬~*~

BORED

I really feel bored recently...
i thk already 3 week i din go out...
bored till i wanna to die!

always go skul then back home...
my life was very bored n gray...
help me lah...
when i only can go out????
feel very hard leh!!!

always stay at home!
like stay at jail!
help ! help ! help !
nobody to accompany me!!!
nobody to help me go out!!!

i wanna to die a!!!
very bored!!!!!
i wan go out!!! i wan go out!!! i wan go out!!!!!

BOYS WILL DON'T KNOW FOREVER

1 男生永远不知道，女生为何也会抽烟，因为她们选择用烟忘记一切伤心痛楚，而不是发泄在你身上。

2男生永远不知道，女生为何会时常和你提出分手，因为其实她们是很爱你的，只是希望引起你的注意，得到你的挽留，希望你不再让她失望，难过。

3男生永远不知道，女生为何会如此在意你的生日，因为她们希望在那个特殊的日子里，陪在你身边的是她，而不是别人。

4男生永远不知道，女生为何约会经常迟到，因为她们只是想看看你是否真的愿意等她，想看看她在你心里到底有多重要。

5男生永远不知道，女生为何在恋爱时喜欢写日记，因为她们喜欢用笔纪录你和她之间的点点滴滴，可以时刻提醒她珍惜你们的爱情。因为她们也知道,这里是她们的天空,她们可以哭,可以笑.

6男生永远不知道 ，女生为何喜欢牵着你的手，因为她们喜欢这种温暖而富有安全感的感觉。

7男生永远不知道，女生为何喜欢和你拍大头贴，因为她们想将你们的合影时刻放在身上，就好像你一直在她身边一样。

8男生永远不知道，女生为何分手后会笑的很开心，尤其在你面前，其实她们笑的并不开心，甚至她笑的时候，心里已经哭的不成样子了，因为她们只是想让你明白，放弃她是你的错，总有一天你会后悔的。

9男生永远不知道，女生为何会喜欢呆在你的身边，因为她呆在你身边是需要你疼的，而不是给你当保姆使用的。

10男生永远不知道，女生在情人节那天最想收到的礼物是什么，不是鲜红的玫瑰，不是别出心裁的礼物，是你陪在她身边度过这个难忘的日子，因为她觉的 只要有你就好 。

11男生永远不知道，女生为什么那么喜欢哭? 但她们自己知道,并不是她们想哭,是因为感动所以她们的眼泪就会不自主的流下来.

12男生永远不知道，女生为什么不喜欢他们出去打架? 因为她们自己知道,打架会伤到人,也会伤到自己,她们不希望看着心爱的人受伤.因为他们受伤,她们的心会更痛.

13.男生永远不知道，女生为什么那么爱打扮? 因为她们知道,这个世界上有太多漂亮的女孩,她们希望心爱的人能够永远只注意她们.

14男生永远不知道，女生为什么会那么软弱? 因为她们知道,她们的软弱才能显得男人的坚强.才会让男人更有信心.在这个大男生主义的社会,男生都希望自己的女生是需要照顾的.是依赖着他的.

15男生永远不知道，女生为什么会那么任性和爱发脾气? 因为女生知道对他发脾气也是一种爱。只有在他面前她才会这么“任性”，只有他才值得她去发脾气。

16男生永远不知道，女生为什么那么喜欢说分开? 因为她们知道,并不是她们真得想离开,只是她们希望男生可以挽留她,让她明白他是爱她的.

17男生永远不知道，女生为什么那么在意他与他的前女友联系? 因为她们知道,并不是她们不相信他,而是她们太爱他,所以害怕失去他.

18男生永远不知道，女生为什么那么希望能有一次机会相拥到永远？ 因为女生知道一但不能相拥，将永远不能相拥，即使心在一起，人也不能了。

19男生永远不知道，女生为什么不会轻易说出“我爱你”三个字？ 因为女生知道一万句"我爱

你"都不能表达对你的感,而一但说了"我爱你",那是她希望永远陪在你身旁.

20男生永远不知道，女生为什么喜欢靠在他的肩膀？ 因为女生认为这是她可以一直信赖的人，她依靠的是一个真正可以依靠的人。

当你在看文章时，心里边想起的那个人就一定是你最爱的人。
好好珍惜，宁愿笑着离开，也不要哭着说后悔，这样你会一辈子难过的

MY UNBENDING

today is a very nice day...
dunno why...
i feel today is different like others day...
when i reach skul...
i feel all the ppl bcum nice...
a smiling hang on everybody face...
is a very nice day...

then to day got a fair in our skul hall...
we go down and take a look...
after that we go bek to class and chat...

suddenly... raining...
i dunno how to back home...
coz i go back home by my 11 bas... [means my leg]
haha...
unfortunately...my dad not at home...
then ....
i receive a call from [N] ... i din answer it...
i know he will fetch us...
i know he will fetch not juz me....
but i dun wan to let him fetch...
i persist in walk myself to go back home...

bcoz of my unbending...
my body bcum wet...
but i still dun wanna to let him fetch...
i dun nid him!

LOVE is MARVELOUS

Today...we was less stuying in class...
all student in class were no mood to studying today...
juz playing there...
n some more joking there...
when we are kidding...
suddenlly we know that a girl n a boy edi bcum couple in our class...
only me n stephy dunno this...

OMG...we tot they are juz joke to lyin us...
bcoz this 2 ppl dun hav so many talk and dont hav any omen b4...
is really supprise when we know tat....
we dunno wat they told can trust onot...
juz we feel tat is impossible they bcum couple...
hahaha...

but finally we know tat is true lah...
anywhere...
wish they will HAPPINESS lah...
coz SIEW LAI is a very good girl...
n sure tat ENG SENG is a very good boy lah....

I WISH YOU ALL HAPPINESS ^.~

死缠烂打

世界上就是有一些死缠烂打的人！
明明已经表明了所有···
但是那些人就是爱多管闲事···去介入人家的东西···
都不明白啊···

刚刚看到我的ALL SHOULD BE OVER这篇日记有人留言···
自称PP的人···
我想他应该看不懂英文···
哈哈···也或许是我的英文不好···表达能力差吧···

他/她···讲我【水性杨花】噢···
几好笑一下其实···
【水性杨花】的定义是什么叻？
难道跟一个男生分了，然后跟另外一个男生在一起···这样就叫【水性杨花】哦？？？
为什么世界上会有那么可笑的人啊？？？
找他这样讲的话，那么全世界应该有99.9%的女生又被称为【水性杨花】了！
还有还有···
那男生跟女生分开了，然后又跟别的女生在一起，那叫什么？
禽兽吗？？还是禽兽都不如？？？
真的是很好笑耶···怎么会有这样的人存在啊？？！

不知道那个是男是女咯···
不过他/她真的是有够死缠烂打的···
从我以前的那个blog追到来这里哦···
应该称赞他/她有毅力还是什么好叻？？？
WHAT RESPOND SHOULD I GIVE????

这些人及时才会消失呢？？
他们真的不觉得他们的所做说为有一点OVER···
不知道要怎样将他们咯···
haiz····真的放弃去讲他们啊···
省点气暖暖肚子好过···

只是要给那些无聊人知道···
有时间不如自己充实下自己好过啦···
没事做就睡觉啦···
不然就做工赚多点钱来给自己花···出去消遣下拉···
一定是太闷···没地方去···然后又没事做···
所以就酱得空做这些酱小孩子的东西···
真的不能成熟一点得咯那些人···
虽然我也没有很成熟啦···但也没有游子倒去干涩别人的事情咯···
就算是干涩hor····人家都已经讲到明明白白了咯···
就不要讲厚脸皮咯···拜托···

我是个很烦的女生

我其实是个很烦人的女生···
甚至是个很烦的女朋友···
男生都应该不会喜欢这么烦的女生吧···
之前··很抗拒被自己的朋友追求···因为···我也知道自己很烦···


这样说我自己···不是没有原因的···
我天生就超级爱哭···
每天为了一点点芝麻绿豆的小时就掉眼泪···
连我自己也觉得自己烦···
但是不知道为什么··就是控制不到···

男生都很讨厌看到女生的眼泪吧···
我已经强迫自己不在任何一个人面前流眼泪了···
有一段时间我真的做得到···
那个时候···就是爱逞强···真的很想哭的时候···就快快的躲进房间···
维持了一两年吧···
那个时候··不想被人觉得自己脆弱···
想给人家觉得我是个很坚强的女生···

但是···从几时开始···？我开始变得脆弱···
比一般人更脆弱···
原来很多因素都可以让人变得更脆弱···
尤其是【情】···它真的可以改变一切···
或许在别人眼里只是个爱哭包···
或许在别人眼里都觉得是在做作···
也或许有些人觉得在博取男生的同情心···

其实没有人想过···不知道从几时开始···
【哭】是我唯一的宣泄方式···
我不想哭···但是压抑了很多···眼泪也装满了···所以就只好溢出来了···
为了那么一点点小事而哭？？
其实有没有想过···在你眼中的小事，或许对我来说是大事···

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不知道自己哪来那么多问题去烦恼···
当我的男朋友真的觉得很对不起···
我担心你们的欺骗···担心被你们玩弄···
因为我所经历的···真的不只是一两次···
跌倒了又再站起来···对我来说真的很不容易的···

我是个不会找话题的女生···但是又是个很怕闷的女生···
开始是很好聊···但是始终会有完毕的一天···
抱歉让你当了我的男朋友···
因为随时随地都会突然间没心情的我···或许会令你觉得莫名其妙···
我从来都不知道自己的醋意有几多···
但我真的有很努力的学习当一个善解人意的好女朋友···
想在你心里留下一个好印象···
希望能做到你想要的···
但是我同事是个很笨的女生···
什么东西都不会···什么东西都不懂···是个井底之蛙···
不能了解你说喜欢的···不能和你有共同的话题···
还有的是我最内疚的···
很内疚不能无时无刻陪着你···也很内疚不会哄你开心···
只会增加你的烦恼··要你烦着怎样去哄我···
真的很对不起···


我真的是一个很烦的女生···或许爱我真的是个错···

GET OUT

Get out from me please
dunno why...i dun wanna to see you anymore...
i really feel hate when i see you!
i know all ppl were like you n hate me!
but i aredy dun care !
i dun care whose one how to look at me!
i just know that i can still a life without you!
i dont need you anymore!!!

please!
why you want coming out in front of me when i already forget all the thgs!
you make me to memorise all the thgs!
i hope i only a computer!
without life!
i can delete want i want to do so!
i want to delete you in my memory!
but cant!!!
this is not i want!
i just feel bad when you r appear in front of my eyes!
i really dun wanna like that please!!!!
i feel bad when you close with my family especially my dad n mum!
even you are their "son"...
but please...can you try to low-key?!
i dun wanna to hate you! but dont make me feel bad!pls...


TO ALL BUSYBODY
GET OUT FROM MY LIFE

who i name busybody which means that is not my friend!
mayb just one person or mayb got so many ppl!
anywhere! GET OUT!!!
if you dun like me! you can dun ever come to view my blog!
i just invite who was really wanna to be a friend with me to view my blog!
i dunnid busybody's ppl comment!
i just nid my friend's comment!

if you really dun like me pls dunnid to leave any comment here!
i will not to show interested in that!!!!
what i want to tell the busybody is edi very clear!
pls dun to do such childish things again!
if the busybody want to do again!
means that he/she is really dun understand ENGLISH!
N i sure that this busybody is too free ...
better he/she take the free time to study or do something for him/herself!
dun do such this non of their business things n try to get involve on others ppl!
this is a very childish action!!!

thx!

SAD

actually...
i thk that wat i tell my mum she will understand...
i thk that what was happen last few day at POH KONG can let her know that wat kind of ppl he is...

but juz now i was listen my mum talk with him...
i cant feel that my mum got any dun like him...
i know he is like my mum's "son"...
but i really feel sad...
dunno where the feeling come from...

juz ask myself dont to bother it...

BAD SUPPRISED

A very supprised i knew in last few day....
last few day i went to POH KONG with my dad n mum...
my mum want to buy a WHITE GOLD necklace for me...
bcoz the length of the necklace got two types...
so we dunno which types is suitable...
then i remember that i got bring [N] gift me one necklace when last month my birthday..
[N] told me that he buy at LAZO DIAMOND n it is WHITE GOLD

when i show out...
the staff at POH KONG say that : urs one colour is edi bcum dark..this is not a WHITE GOLD...
then i ask for the music logo...
she say : this is not too...juz a normal acessary buy at normal shop..

i dunno what respond i need to give when listen the staff say like tat...
then i told my mum about the truth...
she also din give any respond on it...

what i care is not the necklace...
juz why he need to lying???
wat he gift me i will very like it even juz a product in pasar malam...
dunnid to use this skill to lying me rite..?

what i feel now...
he is a horror ppl...
i dun know why he can cover himself very well...
so scare i meet this ppl....

FATHER's Day

today is father's day...
i sleep till very late...
my mum call me to wake up...
she say later want to go out...
go puchong...

first..
we go to a restaurant call RABBIT...
we eat so many thg...
wat i eat is....


CHICKEN CHOP

GARLIC BREAD

VANILA ICE-CREAM

Smile

somtime...a smile can settle all...

HOPE

Juz now my mum want to chat with me...
she ask me that still want together with [A]???
i juz answer : why?

my mum say: y so many ppl talk him like that but you dun wan to acept?

i answer: why i nid to listen others ppl say with no evidence?!

then my mum say: got so many ppl tell u abbout his bad on ur blog then why u dun wan to trust?!

then i reply: why i wan to care about tat? do you know all leave coment at my blog were dun
leave their name!!! mayb is the same ppl do all tat we dunno wat! tat dun dare to leave their name then y i nid to trust?! dun hav the name how m i to ask n get the truth?!

when she listen that...she stop a while...

she say: then how he reply me at ur blog??? how he talk with me n ur dad at ur blog?

i answer: he was ntg... he juz say...only u feel that he was scoldin there! but he din....

i tell her: i really ntg edi this few day! is ur "son" do all the thgs to let me unhappy!! suddely send me a msg to scoling me n ask me dun to talk anythg to my fren!!! wat he means?! why i nid to get a permision from him b4 i chat with my fren?! u know wat he say to his fren?! you know wat he write on his blog?! then how ii feel ?! i feel angry too!!! but i dun hav send a msg o call he to scold!!! i edi wan stop all the thgs!!! is he want to always talk about all this !!! wat can i do?! i can juz cry in my room!


SKIP


i thk i already say wat i wan to tell...
i hope she will understand...

ALL should be OVER

Yesterday i was very tired then go to the bed...
when i juz sleep then suddely my phone ring...
a msg came from [N] ...
[XXX！我不会再原谅你！我已经够伤了，没想到你还在我伤口上撒盐，你在班上所做的好事我全都知道，我没想到我和你说的东西你竟然说出来，你有想过给自己心爱的人把自己说给她听的话当作是茶余饭后用来闲聊的话题，你懂那种感受吗？！你真的变了！你不再是我当初爱的那个X了！以前你做什么事伤我或是对不起我！我都没怪你依然爱着你！可是没想到你变本加厉！你不顾我的感受我也不需要理会你的感受！我不会再原谅你！你现在和他很好是吗？！我就看你和他能有多好！你记住！我今天之所以会变成这样是你一手造成的！你好好反省一下你对我所做的一切！]

what happen with he?!
i straight away call him and ask for the truth!!
he din't want to answer my call!
why a man can always send such this msg but no dare to answer the call then say clearly?!
i call till he answer!
he answer the call finally!
ask him wat was happen again!
he say got somebody tell him that wat i talk at my class!
and he dun wan to tell me who is that!
ok ! fine!
then i tell him that wat i want to talk to my friend is non of his business!
he order me that i cant talk about him!

what the rubbish reason?!
if really like tat!
human dunnid to talk anymore!!!
cant talk about each other and eventhough juz mention the name of the man!
i dun thk that he never talk about me to his friend wat!
if he din do that then why so many ppl gossip that wat i did to him?!
and i got view his blog!

i scold back him!
why you can write watever you like in ur blog to tell all ppl that how i hurt you ?!
you can write in ur blog to tell everyone that [A] is a bad guy!
you say you got the freedom to write watever you want to write!
but now?!
you say i cant chat with my friend if we are talking about you!
how you write me at your blog i can do ntg after i see!
but why you the get involve on me?!

you the the [someone]tell you all this thg is bcoz he/she dun like me to talk about all that!
then i can tell you i juz chat with one person in my class!
i dun care who is that if you dun wan to tell!
i juz wan to tell u!!!
if you dun like to listen all this thing!
you can dont to listen wat the guy told you!
or either you can ask the guy dont tell you anymore!!!
but it is not means that you got the qualifications to order me dont talk anythg!
please dont be a child!!!!

and finally he send me a long msg again!
[我看这是我最后一封发给你的信息···我只是想和你说，不是什么人都可以信得···你在班上所说的东西我全知道，不是我八，是人家特地和我说的，不是人家要陷害你，而是人家真的顶不顺了，他们之所以不当面和你说是不想和你搞到翻脸，或许你不懂，真的很多人不认同你所做的，还有如果可以的话不要在班上说你和他的事了，真的很多人都不喜欢听的，我没别的意思。只是要让你知道而已···谁然你不肯在听我所说的···]

i want to EMPHASIZE!!!!!
i juz chat with only one person in my class at skul !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then i reply him a very long msg too!!!!!
to tell him clearly!!!!!!
[我也想很你说！本来我现在的生活已经很平静！是你一直要把不开心的事翻出来讲！我没有告诉全班的人我跟你的事！我只是和一个人聊过天而已！你追不追我对我来讲是无所谓的！没有你所讲的我觉得很威！跟你讲的那个人我不知道是谁！但是我已经很久没有讲过关于你的了！你现在对我来说一点都不重要！我说他的东西是我和朋友闲聊！你是不喜欢听就叫那个人不要跟你说！那个人不喜欢我说[A]就叫那个人叫我不要说！我由始至终就只跟一个人讲过！
最经我的生活都过得很好！是你发了封无聊的信息来撩起这一切！拜托你有风度点！我要和朋友聊什么是我的事！人家要跟你讲什么是他的事！你自己听到什么相信什么是你的事！我不需要你的劝告！我已经不再是你的谁！你得劝告只会令我觉得你多此一举！什么最后一封信息都是废的！我不干涉你的BLOG些什么你也不要干涉我和朋友聊什么！你在你的BLOG和对人讲到你几伤你喜欢！我对别人讲我和他在一起有几开心也是我的事！你是我爸妈的干儿子所以我尊重你！你也不需要一直把“不要让你父母伤心，尤其是你妈”挂在嘴边！也请你尊重我！你不喜欢的话可以选择不听或叫那个人不讲！而不是叫我不要讲！]

i juz wan to let him wake!!!!
after break is already a long time!!!!
even he still cant put down but dunnid to do such thgs!!!!
i never bother when i view his blog i even i feel unhappy!!!
i dun want to argue on this ces again!!!!
i edi stop and CLOSE FILE!!!!!
why he always do all the thg to blame on me?!
why cant be mature abit?!
break edi then fine lah!!!
why nid.................................!!?!?!

love a person is to wish but not to get involve in all she did!!!!

ACCIDENT

2 accident was happened on 2 mans recently...
last 2 day, [N]was been an accident at KL...
a car suddenly break there in front of him...
he cant stop his car suddenly so the accident happen...
but a very unlogic is the car run away...
all the parents say that maybe the driver was drunk....

[N]was going to hospital after tat...
i go n visit...
he always wanna to vomit...
look so hard...
i really worry about him...


when i back to home...
i tell [A]...
i call him dun to drive so fast ...
bcoz i will worry about him..
i scare he will been an accident like [N]...
then i will dunno wat to do at tat time...
so i advise him dun to do tat...

he edi promise me he will very careful...
but when i sleep...
the nex day i need to study...

he was promise me that he wont go clubbing bcoz he wan to save money...
but yesterday he said his boss ask him to go so that he muz go...
ok... i juz let him go...
i dunno wat reason can let me to nt allow...
he ask me to sleep early bcoz i need to study at the nex day...

i send him a msg b4 i sleep...
i ask him bcareful to drive bcoz he muz drunk...
he tell me tat he know...

when 4:53am...
my phone ring...
i see a msg from he..."sorry!!"
i so afraid that why he will suddenly say sorry to me...
then i call him ...
cant call in...i was very worry at the time...
i reply a msg to him n ask him wat was happen...
then i call 1 time again...
he answer my call....
he said he “撞车了”
i was so so so angry!!!
wat he promise me is juz rubbish?!
he dun care about me????
he dunno i worry about him????

but after that i m nothing...
i dunno wat respond i need to giv...
juz ask for reason...
then he tell me all...
wat was happen bcoz he was drunk...
he drive till 170 at the corner!!!
why he will so brave to do such thg???
how to drive till 170???
he muz din scared death!

i really angry but i more care about him...
his tongue was hurt...
cant eat anythings now...
and his car edi satisfie....
now he said he edi no dare to drive...
maybe he will stop driving a while...
he got no car oso even he wan to drive now...



haiz....please lah boys....
dun play your life please...
think about the ones who care you first...

GIRLS WILL DON'T KNOW FOREVER

☆1、女人永远也不知道男人为什么要学会坚强?因为他们自己知道.他们虽然外表坚强.但内心很脆弱.他们永远想让自己身边的她觉得自己是最棒的.

☆2、女人永远也不知道男人为什么不会轻易掉眼泪?因为他们自己知道.他们不是不会掉眼泪.只是他明白.一但眼泪掉下来了.这段感情也就结束了.

※3、女人永远也不知道男人为什么每次在心烦的时候那么喜欢抽烟?因为他们自己知道.只有在烟雾中才能忆起他们过去美好的时光来寻求一点心里的平衡.

◇4、女人永远也不知道男人为什么要在分手以后还会对她嘘寒问暖?因为他们自己知道.他们并不是想跟你做朋友.只是想挽回这段曾经属于他的感情.

※5、女人永远也不知道男人为什么每次在听到她被欺负了会显得那么发狂?因为他们自己知道.哪怕这次架打输了.躺下了.他也会觉得高兴.因为他们宁愿自己受到伤害.也不愿意看到你哭泣.

☆6、女人永远也不知道男人为什么在分手以后会夜夜买醉?因为他们知道.如果今晚不麻醉自己.那么今晚只能在思念中度过.

※7. 女人永远也不知道男人为什么每次出门会出手那么大方?因为他们知道.他们宁愿自己一个人省吃检用.也不愿意你看到你被别人看不起.

☆8.女人永远也不知道男人为什么会那么爱对她发脾气?因为他们自己知道.对她发脾气并不是不爱她.只是希望她在以后的路上不被别人所欺骗.

☆9.女人永远也不知道男人为什么会那么在意你以前的男朋友?因为他们自己知道.并不是他们不自信.只是他们害怕有一天你会离他而去.

※10.　女人永远也不知道男人为什么看到你为别人写的日记之后还会那么镇静的听你解释?因为他们自己知道.自己并不是不想发火.只是希望能从你的口中得知到底是他重要还是别人重要?

☆11、女人永远也不知道男人为什么不对她说我爱你⒊个字?因为他们知道.并不是不想说.只是他们自己明白.⒈万句我爱你用在身上也不够.

CHAISE BACK

he said he wan chaise back me...
but now i din see any action from him...
maybe i dun hope that he will do tat...
i scare wat will happen again...
now he bcum my mum n dad's "son"...
my parents treat him like their own son...

maybe they want me to treat him like brother...
i want to do so...
but dunno why i got sum feeling when i see him...
i really wanna to treat him like a brother...
but he tell me that he told my mum say that he wan to chaise bek me...
the situation is very complicated...
what is the relationship between me n he now??
i nid to treat him like my brother o the ppl who wan to chaise me?

but besides that...
he really dun hav any action even he always say he wan to chaise bek me...
i cant feel that he love me anymore recently...
wat he was done let me feel that he edi dun like me...
but.....
i dunno wat i feel is correct onot...
juz got such tat feeling...
not gud feeling...
tats all....

PEACE

I take action to friend back with my family especially my mum...
i try to cook a dinner to my family...
when they come back after working...
they try ...

my dad praise me...
i feel very happy...
and i try to talk with my mum...
i hope we can friend back...

then mayb she cant acept suddenly...
but now at least we got talking n smiling...
feel happy now...

SUNWAY LAGOON

Today my brother birthday...
we go sunway lagoon to celebrate...

maybe drunk yesterday...
so i m nt feeling well today...
i din eat...
so....

play till tired...
cant play...juz rest...

then we go back to kepong to eat dinner...
steamboot... very nice...
nothing special...
juz back home....

DRUNK

Yesterday i was drunk...
till i cant remember what did i do yesterday...
erm...
somebody say i did so many things yesterday...
i tell so many thgs n....
i was vomit...
the 1st time i drunk till vomit...
i was drink 3 types of whisky...
maybe drank so many ....so...

somebody tell me about yesterday....
they say...
yesterday i told my mum about my feeling...
tell her tat i really unhappy...
she ask me why...i told all to her...
but i really forget wat i told...
i afraid tat my parents will very angry bcoz i drunk...
this morning when i wake up i really scare tat they will scold me...
but they din do tat...
they din scold me even giv me a "black face"...
this is wat i supprise...

at first...
my mum tell somebody tat sumtime i drunk was not bad...
can let them know what i feel...
i will tell all when i no dare to tell in fact ....
yesterday i tell all...
my mum n somebody know wat was happend...
they know but i dunno they understand onot...
i dunno how to express...
dunno how to express my feeling...
juz know to show i really unhappy...

haiz...
now de situation very complicated...
can face my dad n mum but very shame when talk about yesterday...

Heart FEELING

this few nitez i feel very hard...
cry every nitez suddenly but dunno why...
i dun wana to talk anythg....
even though i wanna to let sumbody know but i dunno how to tell...
i dunno how to tell about my feeling...
m i rue ?
less talking....
n i feel bored chating with him recently...
why will bcum that i dunno...
actually really no topic to chat with him...
mayb we always chat b4 couple...
so now... dunno what can talk...

now i always flash bek wat was happen b4 i break with he...
thk bek how good he treat me ...
how my parents like he n how he accompany me....
whenever i open my eys i will see his face in front of me...
n sure he is the last face i saw when i close my eyes everyday...
bcoz my parents know him n like he...
i can go everywhere if he brings me out...
we can go out together even at midnight...
this life is edi custom for me n he ....
but now....

my heart nt feeling well every nitez...
even he got chat with me till i sleep, but i still cant forget him...
i know i still miss he...
but the time i tell he tat i wan break i was really din giv any chance to him...
i know tat how i treat he tat time .... it was very bad...
juz i wanna to be friend with him but many thgs was happen around me...
i know he was very love me b4 but why i wan to thk like tat...
after break...i always thk tat he was lying me a lot when we r together...
so i hate him... i feel he wan to revenge bcoz i break with he...
then why i will feel hard now...
my heart feel very hurt like a knife stab into my heart...
i dunno how only can remove the hard feelin...

i cant sleep every nitez...
always cry cry cry n cry without any reason...
m i still love him????
m i wanna to couple bek with him???
m i dun love my bf now???
m i feel that he is better???
o i juz feel not custom about my new life right now????