Heart FEELING

this few nitez i feel very hard...
cry every nitez suddenly but dunno why...
i dun wana to talk anythg....
even though i wanna to let sumbody know but i dunno how to tell...
i dunno how to tell about my feeling...
m i rue ?
less talking....
n i feel bored chating with him recently...
why will bcum that i dunno...
actually really no topic to chat with him...
mayb we always chat b4 couple...
so now... dunno what can talk...

now i always flash bek wat was happen b4 i break with he...
thk bek how good he treat me ...
how my parents like he n how he accompany me....
whenever i open my eys i will see his face in front of me...
n sure he is the last face i saw when i close my eyes everyday...
bcoz my parents know him n like he...
i can go everywhere if he brings me out...
we can go out together even at midnight...
this life is edi custom for me n he ....
but now....

my heart nt feeling well every nitez...
even he got chat with me till i sleep, but i still cant forget him...
i know i still miss he...
but the time i tell he tat i wan break i was really din giv any chance to him...
i know tat how i treat he tat time .... it was very bad...
juz i wanna to be friend with him but many thgs was happen around me...
i know he was very love me b4 but why i wan to thk like tat...
after break...i always thk tat he was lying me a lot when we r together...
so i hate him... i feel he wan to revenge bcoz i break with he...
then why i will feel hard now...
my heart feel very hurt like a knife stab into my heart...
i dunno how only can remove the hard feelin...

i cant sleep every nitez...
always cry cry cry n cry without any reason...
m i still love him????
m i wanna to couple bek with him???
m i dun love my bf now???
m i feel that he is better???
o i juz feel not custom about my new life right now????